Tuesday, July 04, 2006
1:15:00 PM
HomeAnother summer day
Has come and gone away In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
May be surrounded by
A million people
I Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two "I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well, I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone elses life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people
I Still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home I've had my run
Baby, I'm done I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
I had always found this song to be sad and depressing, it was the song I kept listening to when he was in aussie for training. I listened to it on the bus, the mrt, at home, when i was walking and wherever i could be. I would look to my side on the bus/mrt and noticed how empty it was, how quiet it was, how lonely it was. I would be walking and thinking how come there are no sounds of laughter or lame jokes.. and it would then hit me he is in another country. It was quite depressing then, cos there were times when you miss him so much, and all you can do put your trust in the Lord and wait. I am glad that period is over. but it will come again later./. but not for now.
And yet, today, this song popped into my head. and it feels all sad and depressing once again. and seriously, i dont want to return to the old me. I hate the old me. But why is the new me losing its power, why am I once more falling into the dungeon of darkness? All these questions in my head that are forming are controlling me.. and I dont want that to happen. I prayed. and I prayed. I want to pray with someone, but I dont know how to ask. pray for me.