Life is a mystery

Wednesday, June 07, 2006
12:35:00 AM

Singapore Army Forces

PC show ended on Sunday. Went through 12 hours of standing up everyday, rushing of keying details into the computer and answering questions posed by the customers. Even had to put up with the irresponsibility of the salesmen. But all in all, i had a good time with shanice, her friends faith and shuyun and the other people that I got to know there. The people in charge on site were also really nice too..

But that also means that i am officially jobless too.
and i need some moolah.. hai..

Went to the agency to hand in my timesheet on monday. and slacked the whole day with ian:)).
watched shows the whole day and had quality time with each other. hee.

Gave tuition to my little boy today and got to know his birthday is on thursday. i think i should get him something. =) went back home and rested before going to meet ian:)) again for dinner and subsequently to church. on the way home, as i listen to his situation and how he felt about it, it stirred up memories of the past. when i was judged through the eyes of people i trusted, and that brought tears to my eyes yet again. and it wouldnt stop. things i thought i had forgotten were in fact just tucked back into my brain and now had a chance to resurface. when you forgive, the weight will be lifted.

i am happy the way i am, and nothing can change that.

what is disappointments? what is expectations? what is hope?
where is my faith? have i truely allowed Him into my life? maybe i dont know anything in the first place.

baby: i will be here for you. you know that.