wondering..

Have been blog surfing.. and realised out of these blogs that I glanced through, half of them had commsball photos. I never had a chance to go to one, it would have been fun to go with yr other half. At least, I gotta go to the parade, but oh well, thats not important. Looking at these photos, makes me wonder on what would have been the answer to my question. Would I be able to digest the contents of the answer, or would I get all emotional again? Would I return back to what I was a few weeks ago, or would I take it in my stride? But knowing me, I tend to contradict myself cos I would really like to know the answer to my question. And yet, I know I may not like what I hear... hmmm.. even I have nothing to say about my own behaviour.

I am not depressed or anything, I am absolutely happy and contented with my bu and my life. But I am curious.. how? Curiousity kills the cat, and in my instance it should be curiousity kills the cow. And so, do I want to "kill" myself again? Thats a really tough decision to make. But, I know myself the best, someday or another, I may eventually ask again for the answer to satisfy my over-growing curiousity and end up dying a tragic death.
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Anyway, to digress, I take back my words about rude people who work in the medical line who are in the 30s range. Thats because I found another category of people that are far worse, and that award goes to the hotel industry with people in their late 20s to late 30s.. and to think when u work in the service line, the most important thing is to smile and be courteous. I dont see or should I say hear, any of those virtues today. Absolutely horrible!
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i love you, bu. Cant wait for u to be out again.