Its an utterly HORRIBLE feeling to be stood up two times in a row - consecutively. Usually i would be freaking pissed.. but i m not in the least pissed.. jus disappointed. Especially when one is the closest person to you. I took the effort to dress nicer than usual.. sprayed on perfume, did everything with a bounce with the expectation of a nice, quiet dinner all to be dashed by the damn army. i waited at the platform to give someone a surprise, but guess the surprise never had the chance to take place. Disappointment can only describe how i feel now. Never in my life have i walked home so fast, tears at the brim of my eyes.. fearing that i would burst into tears on the train.. trying hard to pretend that i had a flu.. and so was sniffing away.
i dont blame anyone.. evrything happens unexpectedly, as how someone would put it. I understand the other responsibilites that everyone has, nothing revolves around me. I am not the only person in the world, jus a small little detail. Jus needed to let it out or i will go mad with emotions. I am alright now, after a good sleep.
Sorry to make you all listen to my complaints. Dont bother about me.